Delaqroux inc.

Normally, if i am to make a blogpost, i rather be alone in my own little corner of the world where i believe that is the best atmosphere for me where i can reflect perfectly on whatever am i writing about. However, tonight, i am writing this blogpost for a special someone that God have blessed me with, and, though i do feel slightly awkward, i am glad she is right here next to me right now as i continue filling this blank page with my emotions… entirely about you. And this blogpost will talk about how i appreciated her moments with me since the first day i met her, how glad i am to have her with me and how special special she is to me. Not to mention; how i wish she’ll be there for me forever.. unfortunately, fate always have her cruel twist; tonight will be our last night together..

I wish i can make the normal shoutout to be as euthusiastic as usual for her… but i just cant tonight.. In any case, this is Delaqroux Inc Updates… My last night with Gloria…

Our moments together was short but it was sweet- every moment of it. Our first meeting was in MidValley. I was supposed to meet her a few times earlier but most of the time, i was somehow reluctant to do so. However, i’m glad that i finally made the right choice to meet her personally.. and, God, was she the sweetest little thing ever to grace Your earth? Until that point, i’ve never missed a chance to have her with me. I know that "to have you with me" might be slightly an over-dramatizng phrase. Then again, that is the only phrase i can think of to describe how i want every moment of my life to be spent with her- and how i cherish every each of them when i did.

For one thing, i dont think anyone realizes how different you are. I do, Gloria. As a matter of fact, i strongly believe that none of them out there who is in any way comparable to you; how distinguishable you are from them, how outstanding, how unique and how special you are when compared to all of them. And all those moments i had with you are also in no way possible to be matched with those with anyone else. I still remember one night when i had you together with me and you reminded me of how life is; bitter at first sip, soft and sweet as it goes along… Just like coffee.. I remembered every word of yours. Since that night, i treasured that reminder and it kept me alive ever since… and it’s all because of you, Gloria. For one moment, i believe i continue to live strongly again entirely because of you.

As i am writing this, i am sorry how i was so selfish the past few weeks. I noticed how i get myself too busy til i nearly forgot to spend time with you. I had the chance to see you yesterday but i chose not to just due to some lame excuses. Yes, i regret being so stupid and selfish.. Nevertheless, i’m glad i came back to my senses today and i can never be glad enough that you still want to be here to be with me in my life.

Although, it is the fact that it is just for tonight..

My heart really stopped the time you said that you will have to leave me this coming Friday. I cant recall how many times have i apologize for me being selfish and how i begged you to stay. But i guess life is just like that.. Sweet moments always comes but not to last forever. I know that you cant help it and neither do I. I guess i just have to stay strong by myself from now on… But the question is; how can i? Who else can replace this addiction of mine towards you? Who will can fill in this emptiness in my life when you’re gone? And most importantly, who will be there to remind and motivate me to continue living this life when i’m standing at the edge of my own grave? I know, life is just like a cup of coffee; bitter at first sip, but soft and sweet as it goes along. But it just seems the other way round up at this point.

Gosh.. if what you’ve been saying all this while is true, then i do hope that i am now at the point of "bitter at first sip"…

Please, help me to stay believing that it will go along soft and sweet soon…

I’ll miss you and i’ll forever love you, Gloria Jean..

Dark Delaqroux ‘08
-Last night with Gloria-

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