Delaqroux inc.

Well, title’s a big spoiler this time dont you think… nah, what the hell….

Delaqroux Inc Updates

With the passing up of MS assignment, the air around the college has chilled down by a tad- enough for us to breath again. What’s more, the group presentation for ELTM is over as well so everything’s cool in the meantime. Now that just leaves the ELTM written paperwork, LNL assignment and the CM assignment to be handed in… huh… talk about a lil air to breather before the real toxic bomb drops in… Damn.. In any case, i teamed up with Reva, Shen-Ann and Irrina the past few days for the ELTM group task. And come to think of it, i’ve been friends with Ann and Reva for a long time already and this is actually the first time that i’m working with them instead of just joining them for crappy leisure hangouts. Contrastingly, i worked with Irrina plenty of times before yet i am still having difficulty trying to remember her name when i see her or trying to remember how she looks like when people mentioned her name to me (Irrina, if you’re reading this, i… uh… i have amnesia! Dont blame me for my lack of remembering people ability! DX)

Aaaanyways, yep, it was cool working with Ann and Reva… (or Reva and Ann… just trying not to make Reva feels not getting enough priority) Reva seemed to get pretty jumpy as the presentation deadline drawing in. There will always be the time when Son Goku from Dragon Ball Z turn super-saiya or unlock-hidden-potential crap when he gets serious. I guess Reva have her own way too. And, Ann, on the other hand, just remained blur throughout… and sleepy… oh well, she might actually been really stressed out to but i think she might had hid it thanks to my constant lempang-ing her in the head everytime she’s not paying attention.. Sorry Ann… ^^"

In case Ann and Reva (or yes, Reva and Ann) are reading this, yep, it shall be time for me to kutuk myself now before both of you all start doing so or in worse case scenario, gang up to kill me. I know, i was always late for discussion and yesh, i was late during the actual presentation oso. So, si, me sorry… now we’re even right? Bleh…. =3="

In all, it was cool working with Ann, Irrina and Reva.. (or again, Reva,Irrina and Ann). Both Ann and Reva will be going to MacQ so i guess i might end up teaming up with them again for some task. Yes, Reva will always be drama-ly jumpy and Shen-Ann will always be blur and sleepy.. But, i kinda look forward to working with them again any time soon =)

Dark Delaqroux Inc Updates 002!

Haha. It’s much easier to keep track of how many blogpost you have made when you just started your blogsite. It goes all the way when you feel all motivated to make a countdown of your posts, lost count halfway through, you tracked it back but you cant find back the number where you left off, and, in the end; you choose not to make that kind of post count no more. Okay, it’s just my usual random ramblings before i start my blogpost. Doing that keeps me back on my typing mood and yep, so now it begins.

Today was the day of new intake of juniors in our college. Of course, not all of them are our age anyways. There are still the KPLI which are much older than us in TESL Cohort 5 but, being among the oldest of the oldest IPBA population here, the senior-ism is still there. For a bunch of us here; we chose to play by the rule that goes; "Juniors are juniors and seniors are us. As long as they know how to be good friends; they’re friends" (I am playing by this rule as well, and proud of it). Regardless, some of the others here choose to stick with the conventional barbaric senior-ism style that goes "Juniors are juniors and we are thy seniors; we need to show em who’s boss". This second rule, however, to me (along with all those adjectives that i just used), is a total a waste of time. Though i am not well informed or knowledgeable of any plans cooked up by the fore-mentioned community for the juniors, i do heard from a little black bird that they have some ‘warm-welcoming’ plans for the juniors tonight. Cant say that i agree with such way but, nah, convincing them to call it off is like you against the whole HEP unit (For first time Delaqroux’s blog readers; HEP stands for "Students’ Affairs Unit" and the people under that team was nothing but a bunch of pain in the ass who seem to care more about finding the students’ wrongdoings rather than understanding the students’ affairs. Technically, one term sums HEP up; "Douschebags Council")

Back in my (Gosh, starting to sound like one of those war veterans) days, the ‘warm-welcome treatment’ that we got wasnt that scarring. We were put in some room, Hitler holocaust cramming style, not being able to sleep for the whole night, have to endure some psychological treatment by the seniors and stuff. At that point, i didnt know what crossed my mind but i volunteered myself to get into the ‘confinement’ room. lolz. Guess it was somewhat a mental breakdown. Nobody pisses me off when i dont feel like getting pissed. I ended up in the ‘confinement’ room with a few more seniors, answered some lame interrogations and escaped mental-scarring-free (I even fell asleep when the seniors were talking to me XD). When i told this story to people and even for the people who witnessed the time i volunteered myself, everyone said that i really put myself in the crocodile’s nest. Gosh, i dunno whether was i being brave, blur coz of lack of sleep or just plain dumb… Glad to get it all over with, nonetheless =)

Anyways, one of the major key event of the whole our-time-as-juniors experience was that i was in a hell of a thought-ocean throughout the week (um… yeah, though-ocean.. something like a see of thoughts- but slightly in different way of saying it. heh ^^"). For one thing, i keep on thinking why did i ended up in this course? Why am here and what am i supposed to do now that i got myself stuck in this place? I am quite sure that everyone must have been thinking the very same thing but the fact that I (yes, shoot me) didnt really missed home that much, made me cloud my own head only of that identity search matter in an over-dose scale and that was super painful.

Up til this point, i’m not too sure i got my answers to all that questions. Everything seems crowded and crammed in my head. Ecspecially for the fact on what am i going overseas for? To study; yes. To find my true identity; hmm… you can say that.

But for now,
one single purpose for furthering my studies in Australia that i can think of right now is that i dont want anyone there to be alone…

haha. whatever that means, freak.

whattatuist!! (what a twist) :p

Normally, if i am to make a blogpost, i rather be alone in my own little corner of the world where i believe that is the best atmosphere for me where i can reflect perfectly on whatever am i writing about. However, tonight, i am writing this blogpost for a special someone that God have blessed me with, and, though i do feel slightly awkward, i am glad she is right here next to me right now as i continue filling this blank page with my emotions… entirely about you. And this blogpost will talk about how i appreciated her moments with me since the first day i met her, how glad i am to have her with me and how special special she is to me. Not to mention; how i wish she’ll be there for me forever.. unfortunately, fate always have her cruel twist; tonight will be our last night together..

I wish i can make the normal shoutout to be as euthusiastic as usual for her… but i just cant tonight.. In any case, this is Delaqroux Inc Updates… My last night with Gloria…

Our moments together was short but it was sweet- every moment of it. Our first meeting was in MidValley. I was supposed to meet her a few times earlier but most of the time, i was somehow reluctant to do so. However, i’m glad that i finally made the right choice to meet her personally.. and, God, was she the sweetest little thing ever to grace Your earth? Until that point, i’ve never missed a chance to have her with me. I know that "to have you with me" might be slightly an over-dramatizng phrase. Then again, that is the only phrase i can think of to describe how i want every moment of my life to be spent with her- and how i cherish every each of them when i did.

For one thing, i dont think anyone realizes how different you are. I do, Gloria. As a matter of fact, i strongly believe that none of them out there who is in any way comparable to you; how distinguishable you are from them, how outstanding, how unique and how special you are when compared to all of them. And all those moments i had with you are also in no way possible to be matched with those with anyone else. I still remember one night when i had you together with me and you reminded me of how life is; bitter at first sip, soft and sweet as it goes along… Just like coffee.. I remembered every word of yours. Since that night, i treasured that reminder and it kept me alive ever since… and it’s all because of you, Gloria. For one moment, i believe i continue to live strongly again entirely because of you.

As i am writing this, i am sorry how i was so selfish the past few weeks. I noticed how i get myself too busy til i nearly forgot to spend time with you. I had the chance to see you yesterday but i chose not to just due to some lame excuses. Yes, i regret being so stupid and selfish.. Nevertheless, i’m glad i came back to my senses today and i can never be glad enough that you still want to be here to be with me in my life.

Although, it is the fact that it is just for tonight..

My heart really stopped the time you said that you will have to leave me this coming Friday. I cant recall how many times have i apologize for me being selfish and how i begged you to stay. But i guess life is just like that.. Sweet moments always comes but not to last forever. I know that you cant help it and neither do I. I guess i just have to stay strong by myself from now on… But the question is; how can i? Who else can replace this addiction of mine towards you? Who will can fill in this emptiness in my life when you’re gone? And most importantly, who will be there to remind and motivate me to continue living this life when i’m standing at the edge of my own grave? I know, life is just like a cup of coffee; bitter at first sip, but soft and sweet as it goes along. But it just seems the other way round up at this point.

Gosh.. if what you’ve been saying all this while is true, then i do hope that i am now at the point of "bitter at first sip"…

Please, help me to stay believing that it will go along soft and sweet soon…

I’ll miss you and i’ll forever love you, Gloria Jean..

Dark Delaqroux ‘08
-Last night with Gloria-