Delaqroux inc.

Okay, this may either sound a lil freaky but everyone in ipba has gone off back to their hometown for the end of sem 1 holiday but me, in my case, is still here in my dorm in college. Heheh…

Delaqroux Inc Updates!!

So if you’re wondering why am i still here; well, first, the holiday is what? for a whole month; there’s no rush to it. Second, i enjoy my life in KL more than my life in Selayang. Third, now that everyone (escpecially Daryl and Adam) is gone the internet connection in our dorm belongs to ME (MUARGHAHAHAHAHAH!!!). Fourth (and exceptionally the more rationale among all), i left my BTN attendance certificate in the bus company and i still need to sort that mess out with the IPBA office. Fifth (also quite logical), i’ll be attending IPBA joint board meeting with the overseas twinnning partner (bo-ring). Sixth, Adam is with me here.. well, at least, he was with me; he had to wait for his bro before he can begin his hols in penang. Seventh, i am alone in the dorm, which means that i’m able to do anything i want (put on loud music, wake up at 1pm, sleep at 6am etc.). Eight, there’s nothing much to do back in Selayang anyways. Ninth, a whole empty ipba compound is the best compound for tagging.. Ehehehehhh… >8D Tenth reason… umm… i.. welll.. I AM EMO! I HEART BEING ALONE!!! WAKAKAKAK!!!

Okay, okay, i’ll be chowing back tonight once i finish this blogpost. Reason? Um… that very reason beats all the previous ten before.. i’m out of money… TT__TT

Oh, goodie! What’s your plan during the holidays? 8D

No plans, fellow readers. I, being an energetic guy stuck with a not-so energetic family, might as well get myself stuck all the way throughout the holiday in home sweet home. Bleh.. At least, i got my psp now so i should be enjoying myself even without my old PS2 (and yes, a ps3). Hmm.. maybe i should start running around this hols. Seems like the perfect oppoturnity to get back the running momentum. And yep, visit Selayang Mall and Selayang Capitol and show off my PSP to D. Mwahahaa. I indulge in people’s jealousy. Wakaka. Aside to all that, maybe i should try out some social work over in PErfection…

aaaaaanyways.. happy holidays peopleeeeeee…. -____-"

So yeah, i was gone for one whole week and yep, ppl cant find me in IPBA, KL nor can they find me in Selayang.. So where was I? Well, i was in Shah Alam!! Whooo!! And what was i doing there? Well, Kem Bumi Jati Shah Alam, Kem Kenegaraan Birotatanegara, Delaqroux Inc Update BTN Live!

Well, one thing that everyone (including me) have to remember while reading (and writing) this blog post is that i cant write much. Why? lolz. Let’s just say that the first day of the BTN camp, all of our handphones, cameras, video recorders, audio recorders etc. was all ’safely kept by the BTN staff to avoid any unfortunate events of thievery’.. Ahem.. Ohmigosh.. I accidentally cleared my throat.. Doesnt sound like i’m implying anything.. Oh, the apostrophe? Whoops, coincidence…

So, all i can say is that the camp wasnt really much idea of a camp. Of course its not really totally isolated anywhere inside some forest like the one i attended last time in Ulu Kenas (Read last year’s blogpost) and yep, that is something good but nah.. compared to ULu Kenas, we dont hear river flowing all day long, we dont hear cicadas and forest monkey callings in the morning nor seeing any cool, calming morning mist. All we can hear in the morning is the prayers calls, head facilitators’ calls and siren for role calls..

And aside to that, our fellow groupmates are no one of infamiliarity. Still fellow IPBArians, all my buddies are there so yep, thats the good and the bad part.. Good part is; i can ‘mix’ well.. Con; it gets a lil wee bit boring and the fact that you saw something you hate about someone, you have to imply the thought that you will still be meeting the guy/girl over and over that you practically cant say much stuff.. bleh.. So, what else.. umm.. aside to other LDK facilitators who are pure **NO FOOTAGE AVAILABLE**, my group’s facis are quite tolerable. Suprisingly tolerable. They encourage us to do the talking and thinking and they dont write out conclusions for us; they let us do the work which i figured is the best way of actually instilling patriotism, discipline, self-esteem, obedience..

Not to say that they worked..

Apparently, first night back from the camp, me and Ami broke curfew rules out watching late night movies and yyyyeah, manage to cheat ourselves back into the dorm. Second day in amcorp, we saw some Nazi flags and banners, thought they looked cool and nearly bought them. Third day after the camp, well all of sat around and ‘reflected’ on what we did in camp all the way till 1am in the morn in the dorm compound (past curfew again)

Hmm.. Guess you cant really bleach off the spots from the leopard eh?

Delaqroux Inc. Updates and yep, exam’s over but it seems like the state of depression havent reached its end for me (aaand.. yeah, naveen oso perhaps..). First of all, we’re going to begin our one week btn camp in Shah Alam beginning from next week and of course connection from all freedom will be disconnected. Secondly, i just revisited some old memories and it appears that i accidently opened an old wound which was supposed to be healed long time back..

Well, not rly healed actly, more to stitched with few nimble threads and left forgotten.. lolz

Well, i revisited my old myspace profile a few month back. To my surprise, i received a msg from Moon. She asked whether am i doing good and am i still angry of her. Apparently, being an asshole, i pretended i didnt see the message at all, closed my inbox, logged out and never to visit my myspace profile for another few months.

However, recently, i got this sudden urge to log in again and apparently, my three years dissapearance from myspace is starting to get plenty of attention (yes! Friggin’ three years!! About effing time someone noticed! Dogh!!).  I got a few message from old my buddies in secondary school asking how am i doin and how can they contact me (oh yeah, although i left my profile unattended for quite awhile, i didnt rly deleted my account- i simply state there that i wont be active no more in myspace). Turned out that i tried to reply their message, but in a way, there’s nothing to answer. "where am i now"? Well, IPBA, told you before and i’m in no mood telling where i am now over and over at the moment. "how am i doing"? Uh.. not that good. Sorta starting to hate this situation i get myself stuck into. "How’s studies"? Yeah, i’m gettig more hardworking but i dont see much improvement and i’m not proud being a hardworker. "How’s life"? Is pretending that life’s good means that life IS good? So yep, nothing much to answer. In the end, i decided to reply at least one of those message. Well, misery attract helluva company but doesnt mean company isnt another miser. Yep, i replied Moon’s message.

What i replied? Well… i said "sorry".. just exactly as how i said it three years back.. Mostly sorry for everything.. Sorry that i was dissapointing. Sorry that i chose to ran off instead of even trying to solve anything. Sorry that i was even there right in the beginning…

Didnt really expect anyone to answer actly but a few days after, she did. She told me that she read my blog on january 2007. It was solely a post for the point that i was missing her terribly that time.. She felt terribly guilty and she cant help but to cry.. She said she never considered anything as my fault, it was all hers. She said that she is sorry for everything.. Everything that i’ve done, now she’s apologizing for all of them… so, both of us are apologizing to each other now..

Just great, 2005 revisited.. I made her cry again..

So what happened next? Well, nothing happened. 2008 time plane continued moving once again. Moon is still there and i, unfortunately, is still here.. away, being selfish and a coward, still on the run and still pretending that nothing ever happened. Apparently, i erased the memory that i made someone that i care to cry before, i relived that terrible memory again today and as what i resolved back in 2005, i dont want to make her cry because of me ever again..

Yep, so Moon will still be there and i will still be here..

Moon will still be there and i will still be away.

Season Finale on Delaqroux Inc Updates!

Okay, i know i’m actly doing something that i shouldnt be; posting a blogpost during the exam week. lolz (For one thing; there wont be anyone even bothering to open up their friendster page on such heated week) Well, when the urge to write approaches, the writer must answer the call and posts shall be made. So here it is!

So, yeah, first semester of year 1 closing to an end and final exam is here. WHooo! So, the exam lineup are HDV (just finished the paper this afternoon), Philosophy, Linguistics and (ppft…) BM. So, how the first paper goin then, Dark? Welll… not being a show-off anything but it was somewhat manageable. Despite the extreme time constraint, i managed to complete all three essays and feel proud of my points. Well, for once my first paper within an exam week wasnt screwed up. It was like a curse for me. THe first paper will always suck for me.. Maybe its because of some exam shock? Well, thank goodness i’m able to get over it this time around XD However, plenty of ppl didnt manage to get it done on time which somewhat made me question myself; "did i really did based on what i should do?" Hmm… Oh well, what’s past is past. Time to face the other papers and yep, lightning wont struck the same place twice wont it..?

**looks at Adam** yes, Adam, unless God plays DotA and He has a Refresher Orb and yyyeah, lightning may struck in the same place twice… (DotA Jargon.. best you keep your interest on other aspects in life that counts)

So… in any case, people who didnt manage to give out all their best just now during the test, well, heads up! More test coming and give out all your best this time around okay? Stress free! Chin up! Up, up and away ppl!!!!

Now to read philosophy… bleh…. =3="