Delaqroux inc.

Sob.. Thanks for all your wishes.. I’m so touched.. Sniff.. Okay, yeah thanks y’all. Actually, this year’s birthday was a lil wee bit.. well.. dissapointing i guess.. I’m kinda hoping for a birthday wish from Moon but well.. either she forgot or she just wouldnt care. I mean, who would after such a big arguement such as ours. Bleh.. Dark, you’re an asshole. Always demanding arent you? Bah, who cares?

Delaqroux inc updates!!
So, yeah, holidays coming to an end and with some examination (NL and LDS) approaching- not to mention vast numbers of soon-to-come assignments and presentations- i could smell armageddon, damnit! AAAACK!! Of such agony shall befall upon us all! Ahem, yep, my bags are packed and ready to go. Gonna be leaving for IPBA from Selayang just a few more hours from now. Kinda sad to leave home though (though my home aint really that far away) but then again, it’s always a pleasure to see the faces of my buddies. Furthermore, halloween is coming. I know we arent celebrating halloween here in Malaysia but i always gets this excited feeling whenever that day’s drewing closer. Weird no? Anyways, can wait to see you guys soon! Delaqroux ETA: 8 hours!

Whassup people! Dark here with more fresh updates! Uh… Actually, nothing’s that fresh. Just a blogpost on how i spent the first five days of our holiday. Like i said, ‘fresh’ isnt actually the precise term as many hours of this holidays are spent in slumberland (in case you’re rly dumb, that means "in bed"), last minute part time work at a Ramadhan bazaar, some short hours of NL and LDS revision, Taekwando shadow sparring, eating, eating, eating, eating, eating and spend lots of hours in front of my PC.

inevitably, i kinda felt a bit lifeless for this holiday. So instead of the "kunjung-mengunjung tradition", i stick to my "dok umah, melantak" policy. hey, dad just got a whole bunch of lemang(s) all at once. You know how easy lemang get spoiled? So someone gotta eat them before that happens aye? Anyways, part time work sucks. The sale was quite good though i dont quite get along with the girl next stall. She’s a big mouthed, short tempered bi.. i mean.. woman. Nah, too loud. Not exactly my type. Eating lotsa lemangs and sitting for long hours in front of the PC; not exactly a good combination for my weight. Sigh.. i dunno why but i kinda get addicted to youtube, friendster’s blog and some online games liek ImperiaOnline, Techwarrior and Runescape over the internet. Sigh.. i’m gonna grow fat (again). Thankfully, i did spend some hours for independent Taekwando pratcice session. Hopefully that’ll burn some calories.. Sheesh..

Can u actually believe that? D actually asked me to come to his house for dinner on Deepavali eve!! Okay, so it’s not big deal but D never asked me to his house ever since i knew him 5 years ago. But, i was all mad just a few hours before the gathering (which was held at 8pm). Not at D but the other guys. One by one of them suddenly rang me saying that they cant come to the gathering. Their excuses? One ‘tak larat’ (obvious bullshit coz she said she’s having a fever, though her voice sounds exactly perfect to me), another want to go shopping (this is a goddamn old friends gathering damnit! What kind of excuse is that?), another ‘not sure’ (no apparent excuse but finally never showed up) while the other god-forbid ‘friends’ just pass the gathering without any excuses whatsoever. Even if they cant come; why wont they just tell D straight instead of me. He’s organizing the gathering; not me! Cowards! So-called friends! Hah! Pure crap; i call it!

Anyways, luckily there are still few that showed up or else D will be really upset. Nanda (glad to see his leg recovering again), Pah and Moon (Crap.. why D invited her along?..) were present aside me so at least there were some company. The dinner was great. Not that grand though but everything is great. i fell in love with the rendang. D’s mom is really a good cook (i still cant make out the recipe for the rendang T_T). However, cant say everything was perfect; there’s Moon. She hadnt change at all. She still looks the same since i last saw her. She looks prettier now though. Maybe coz i havent seen her for quite a while; i thought she looks more beautiful now. Bleh.. I still hate her eitherways (and forever will). Then again, both of us didnt talk to each other at all during the gathering. Nah, i’ll just stick to "Dont mind me. Hope you’ll have a good time with your stupid boyfriend" policy of mine. We did took some group photos though and she offered me a handshake. I accepted though i didnt even look at her face. Hopefully you ACTUALLY see THAT, Moon! Such saddistic satisfaction! Nyahahaha! Then again; i feel like a jerk… oh well.

So, that’s all for the gathering. Oh yeah, Kaveetha looks prettier now as well. Maybe (not precisely a "maybe") she (have) grewn (so much, much) more taller than me already. After all, been two years since i saw her last. She still calls me "Abang Adnin" though… ironic.. *glooooooooooom* T_T

Recently, my buddies were really getting themselves excited to go out to have some chinese meal where they thought of introducing dim sum (a chinese set meal thingy) to Preenie. Finally they marked the dim sum outing to be on 14th of October while they also planned to go for some Deepavali shopping afterwards. Just like my past participance in the mooncake festival (read previous blog) i decided to get meself involved in this outing too. Hey, good oppoturnity to get myself ‘acquaintanced’ with dim sum no?

Well, unfortunately, you ARE right if you made two statements on "you cant eat dim sum, can you?" just a few seconds ago after reading the last line above. First statement; yes, i cant eat dim sum coz it was the fasting month and second statement; yes, i cant eat dim sum coz imma muslim and most dim sum restaurants around k.l only serve non-halal ones but hey, get some of your mind capacity openned there will you? it’s not like it’s something of total prohibition  is it? Joining my guys for a trip to eat dim sum? Just as long as i dont eat no dim sum, it’s just like a normal outing wont it be not? Why am i mentioning that question on those previous sentences? Aye, it’s because i had some negative remarks when i told my other friends that i’ll be joining my buddies’ outing for dim sum. Even after i told them that i wont be touching no dim sums during the outing, most of them keep on showing some goddamn.. i mean.. unappropriate responses. Please guys, what with the close-mindedness? There is nothing wrong with learning other culture’s culinary art is there? Sigh.. Stupid humans..

Anyways, no point wasting this blog post for those issues aye? Let’s get the blog on the block! Well, so i tagged along Loong and co. to Taman Paramount (no, this place have nothing to do with Paramount Pictures) where they heard that there was this one dim sum restaurant there. So the cohorts faithfully marched galantly towards the destination. Actually, it wasnt that hard to get to Taman Paramount from IPBA; just some risky road crossing, tiring long walks, gruesome wait plus line ups and finally, chaotic ride in the LRT. No biggie lolz. However, my biggest fear of joining the guys for the dim sum lunch, aside from getting approached by JAKIM or something like that (i dont think a muslim seeing sitting in a restaurant during the month of Ramadhan is a welcoming sight for them), is that my buddies cant fully enjoy their meals while i was there. You know; eating sumthing while one of your buddies just able to sit there and watch could make you feel a bit akward or uneasy. I dont want any feel of guilt or awkwardness disturb them from enjoying their meal but luckily, i dont think they did- seems like those guys did enjoyed their dim sum to the last plate! ^^ Yep, they did said something like "sorry that we all enjoyed ourselves but you didnt" but hey, if you guys are reading this, just wanna let you guys know that i DID enjoyed myself! Nothing beats the feeling when seeing my friends were able to enjoy themselves. To tell you the truth, i spent most of the time looking at you guys while you were eating, not staring at the dim sums. I dont feel at all interested in the dim sums. Like i said, there was a far better sight of seeing you guys enjoying yourselves. No, seriously, not a joke. I really mean it! I was smiling inside all of the time- even laughing as well- while watching you guys. I know it sounds weird but it was a warming sight… Sniff.. I love you guys so much.. T_T

Sniff… YOSH! MORE UPDATES COMINATCHA!!! *to be continued*
After the meal we proceeded with our next destination; Masjid Jamek. There was supposed to be a bazaar there and the girls wanted to do some Deepavali shopping but the fact is; only one of them, Preenie, will actually celebrates Deepavali. Sheesh.. Girls. Anyways, i vowed to myself that i wont be buying anything while i’m out. Sure i got some cash in my wallet but i planned to save em all for later but (yes, unfortunately, there’s a "but") a black jippa caught my eye. It was supposed to be a mere window shopping but that black jippa was way too good to be missed. However, i dunno why; i bought it.. but not for myself; but for my dad instead. I dunno why (again). Maybe coz i remembered how i forgot his birthday. Probably this is a good chance to make it up.. Too bad i had to miss that jippa. Oh well. "Ka-ching"! Rm22 outta my wallet!

Anyways, stesen berikutnya; KL CENTRAL. I’m still wondering whether if it’s just me or the LRT-computer-voice-girl announcing our next destination sounds more cheery when she announced that the next station will be either KL Central, Terminal Putra or Ampang Park. Ahem.. Just wondering. So, shall we proceed to the next station. It was KL Central and another bazaar was being held there as well. We went looking around for some Deepavali clothing and yes, i did said "we". I, too, got involved in buying some stuff. It was a female punjabi suit and definitely i wont be buying that for myself but my mom. It was too good to be missed (a lil sense of deja vu here aye?) so i got it for rm30.

Yep, the day was fun indeed. I did got some other stuff from both Masjid Jamek and KL Cantral’s bazaars. Most of them are accessories; one ‘bullet’ necklace and uh.. something that i rather keep personal. Hehe. But the bad news is; after paying for several train trips and my purchases, i was only left with *drumroll* a goddamn 10 ringgit! And i still have 7 days to go before holiday. If one meal cost (maximum of) rm3 and i eat two meals for sahur and fast break each day; this means that i’m *calculates* in need for about rm42 and i’m rm 32 ringgit short…. GWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep. i know this update is way behind schedule but hey, i just got a chance get this ol blog an update. Sigh.. the assignments and stuff to be blamed.. Nevertheless, as the holidays for all IPBArians is here (finally); time to get this blog back to business! So, anyways here it is!!

On the 6th of October, there was this Mooncake fest held in IPBA. At first i felt a bit down as the festival drew near because I was the only muslim among my best buddies so it was a lil feeling of left out that all of them will be able to enjoy the festival but i cant. What’s more, most of my homies went out that day so i was alone in dorm for dinner. But then, i made up my mind that i wont be an emo and just sob around here; why dont i just join the festival? There’s no saying that a malay cant join in no? Furthermore, this could be a nice scoop for IPBA newsletter and RJ did invited me to join the festival earlier as well so i guess joining in wont do no one any harm aye?

And i glad i did. It was great. I was feeling a bit akward though. No malays; only me and Shah but luckily i got my "Ah Chong" disguise on. No one will even guess imma malay. Who knows this "Ah Chong" nick name can be put to good use today.lols. And so the event started. Not as grand the one held in my old school but it wasnt that bad. The first show was a sketch and then there were a slideshow presentation. Seriously, it was more like an "Edisi Siasat versi Mooncake" if you ask me. lolz. There was another sketch after it. This is more of a sketch i was looking forward to as Loong was the director while Lee, Chew and RJ was among the actor. The sketch was great indeed! (Quote of the week: "NOKIA: Connecting People" [Daryl, 2006]) Anyways, i was told earlier that RJ and Lee will be in to some both traditional and modern dance. It was the bomb for sure! RJ looked so cute when she was doing the strafe-left-and-right step. lolz. Lee looked cute too… only that he was really blushing coz he messed out some parts from the dance.

Now for the mmmmmaaaaaaaaaiinn EVENT!!!!! [Todd Brisham, 2006]
It was the macy’s day.. I mean; it was the lantern parade! Actually i thought i was just gonna walk around IPBA with my buddies with my phone on. But a senior student gave me the privelege to walk around with a lantern of my own! It was sweet! Mine’s red in color and got a candle in it (Okay, i’m starting to sound like a kid). It was cool. I paraded around IPBA with RJ, Chew and Loong (though i got seperated from them most of the time). I couldnt see Preena though. Either she was left behind throughout the parade or she just waited in the DKA for us all to arrive. Geebus, it was a bit quiet without her in the group. Sorry, Preena… Eitherways, walking in the middle of the night was awesome (apart the part where the guys over at the Surau caught me skipping Terawikh. lolz). To tell you the truth; the scenery with all the gentle pink and green lantern glows was.. well.. kind of romantic. I always thought a scene; dark atmosphere lit only by glows of fireflys or dim candlelights are extremely romantic but this time, check it; pink and green glows; how more romanctic can it get? Sigh… Wish my.. ahem… nevermind.

So, uh.. that’s all for this update this time around. Kinda sad to end the fest that day. But still, it was a definite night-worth-of-remembering alright. It was a shame that Malay students werent able to participate in this celebration. It would have been more fun with inclusion of malay students as well. Maybe next year, i’ll try and get all the Malays to join together and celebrate this day altogether like a family. Worth a shot aye? It would be great!

Today i went to the ELTC with RJ. We just read some stuff there and chat a lil bit but it was on our way back that i found out something really great about her. We were talking about her sister when i suddenly brought up the question; whether her family approved or not that she’s attending this overseas course. She answered that it was her family who asked her to attend this course. She actually wanted to become a doctor before. It was her actual ambition before all this. She mentioned that her family doesnt exactly approve of this ambition of hers because of the cost of the studies and all other stuff. She told me a lot more reasons behind her real ambition and i just listened. One of her reasons kinda.. well.. maybe touched me a little. She has such a high ambition. She has views over what she wanted her future to be like. Her perspective was far ahead of mine obviously. I cant even say anything. Just like.. really damn… speechless or something like that. Hell, i cant describe how the fusion of feeling i felt that time.. Impressed, astonished, amazed.. Crap, i cant desribe it…

Come to think of it, her family must have been really proud of her. Anyone who knows her must be proud to get to know her as well.. She’s already a woman inside. Sigh.. make me think; i wonder if there’s anyone out there that are actually proud of me.. My family, Moon, Devilana, Nas.. I wonder if they do.. Wonder what they view me as.. Here i thought that joining this overseas course would make them view me more of a man than before.. Maybe making them feel proud to get to know me.. But here i am; for once wondering what actually do i rly had made myself a man or i’m just being a liar to myself for all this long. I even wonder; will i make out of this place as what i always wanted myself to be?

I didnt mention this in any of my blog that RJ was definitely a worthy rival here in IPBA and i promise myself that i will among the biggest rival in IPBA as well. But seeing how great RJ was, i realized my mission was obviously still far from done.. Hell, i’m not surrendering. I need to sharpen myself a lot more. There’s nothing that can bring me down. My accomplishment may still be far but i’m not gonna give up am I? RJ wont, i bet, so i wont be giving up any sooner as well! I’ll be the man everyone will be proud of! Even for RJ as well!

JUST BRING EM ON!

Guess that’s the best word to describe IPBArians so far. Almost everyone is not feeling the best of health these days, terrible enough, if i may add; physically and mentally.

Just a few days ago during fast break, Faris werent joining us where he just ate all by himself in his room (with his trusty mexican coffee buns and rose soy milk). I tried inviting him a few times (as the other guys seem to take their so-called buka puasa as top priority more than their friends) but he refused. I read one of his blog post earlier that day. Pretty sad one i’d say so i thought maybe he’s just feeling a lil blue. Like they say; the best thing to do when one’s blue is to give him or her a bit of space for theeself. Later after the meal, i went back to see how he’s doing but he was sleeping on the floor, right next to his mexican coffee buns. Oh well, some peeps tend to do weird stuff when they’re down, or so i thought. He totally passed out! The whole house gone nuts that time. Luckily it was just dehydration. He woke up soon after. You can never imagine how glad i felt when he’s back to normal again later that night. lol. Pity that guy as usual.

This week’s taekwando was meant to be cool as usual. But, unfortunately it didnt turn out well. Not for a bit coz Murni came. Her face was, well, similar to mine when i was quarantined before. It’s not that i dont welcome her to the training but seeing her sitting on the side lines watching us practicing just add up some additional guilt for me for the night. I cant help but feeling like she’s blaming me and indeed, i totally lose focus and i mixed up a lot. RJ was laughing at me obviously. I cant make out either if she was laughing on her usual ‘gossip’ thingy or just at me looking dumb. Murni joined us practicing later that night though. I guess she got tired of siting around doing nothing. That ease up me a lil bit at least. Afterwards, Senior Aiman told us that there would be another practice for this Thursday (today). Because of all things went haywire today, i’m really looking forward to today’s training, hoping things will somehow turn out good this time around. Nevertheless, RJ just told me that she would be skipping today’s practice because of her Mooncake Festival rehersal. Guess it’s just me and Shah then. It would be pretty quiet without her with us. Sigh.. tough luck..

And recently, i felt so not myself. Kinda moody and blurry and stuff. I kinda feel down a lot. Dunno why. I dont talk much and i tend to get mad pretty easy even for some small things. It’s really, really weird. It’s like someone else is controlling my body. I feel like i want to do stuffs i usually do (participate in class, joke around with the guys) but something just hold me from doing so. Everytime i feel like doing something, my whole body become tired and i end up not in the mood and yes, staying still in my seat in the end. Maybe someone shot a tranquilizer on me the other night. I dunno. Today is the same as well. Loong was being really commanding this morning where he asked (commanded) me to the an extra job for Mr. Rijeng parting..uh.. party or something.. The rest of his words are okay until one of that part when he said “..you dont have anything to do..” Hell, i do have anything to do of course and you know how hard it is to command the entire 1.5 to do a group work (where i am right again. Nobody showed up to do that work today). It was a park walk for Loong, RJ, Preena and Lee as they had to attend somekind of dance for the Mooncake festival. They dont have to kill themselves thinking about the work. Not fair… Nonetheless, i think i know what’s the reason for this whole lifeless me thingy. Not suitable for public knowing so i’ll just keep that reason for myself.

And now, things seem to get worse and worse for everything. I found out i did some errors for my ES assignment so i had to do the editing once again. Just when you thought you’re a lil less burdenized (is that a correct word?) from the pile of assignments. Hope things will go well (again) soon…

Aye, recently everything been okay in IPBA. No infection for the last weekend. Hopefully those were the last of the outbreak. I really dont want anyone to get infected anymore. Come to think of it, i havent called Murni yet. Kinda afraid she’s mad at me for my ‘free donation’ of virus. Who wouldnt though; i’ll probably gonna make her miss taekwando’s grading which probably goin to be on tommorow. It’s weird though, it was this feeling again when you hope someone just come to you and nag you on your face. Maybe that’ll make me feel less guilty.. Heh.. I guess i’ll try and call her tonight.. Anyways, everything been cool the last weekend as well; i watched Helsing (until 2am with Mustang and Seph), went for several trips to bazaar (looking forward for today’s trip as well ^^) and i almost killed myself… It was so fast.. Everything just pass by me… I couldnt hear anything… Only the whizzing sound… Such horrible sound… I couldnt make him stop… Maybe he couldnt hear me… Or maybe he just dont want to stop… *mumble mumble*

Ahem, delaqroux inc updates!
Everyone looked happy this few days (not exactly happy; just ok) but i just find out that everyone is having their own agenda within. What i’m saying is; evryone’s facing their own conflicts recently. Flo, Blur, Loong, Chew. Not to mention the infected ones as well. And i guess i am, too, on the list. Kinda sad though. Ecspecially Faris’s case. To whoever reading this; please stop whatever you’re doing to him and if Nani’s reading this; just wanna let you know that Faris is a good guy. He’s cool. We were all just playing a stupid gossip thingy on him. He’s not gatal or anything. Honest. I feel sorry for him a lot. Kinda wish there’s something i could do to make up for him…

Guess there isnt much i can do to help this situation but i bet the oncoming holidays will. Maybe it’s a good oppoturnity to ease you guys up a lil bit. Until that day comes, keep your chin up, Ipbarians! INNAL AMAM!!!!